Category: Angst

The Animal Song – Duochanfan

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Title: The Animal Song
Series: Affirmation
Series Order: 2
Author: Duochanfan
Fandom: 9-1-1
Genre: Angst, Crime Drama, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Relationship(s): Evan Buckley/Lou Ransone, Background relationships
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Hate Crimes, Hate Speech, Violence-Graphic, Violence-Domestic, Violence-Against Children/Child Abuse. Bigotry, Canon Natural Disasters, Canon Typical Violence, Character Bashing, Dark Themes, Death Minor Character, Discussion Death of Children, Gun Violence, Homophobia, Injury, Kidnapping of a Minor, Attempted Murder, Attempted Murder of a Minor, Murder, Stalking.
Word Count: 50,955
Summary: Evan arrived in LA, meeting with Isabel and Edmundo Diaz, the two take him in as he starts university, and becomes the godfather of one very adorable baby, Christopher Diaz. He settles into life in LA, finding friends, a relationship and even a career that he hadn’t thought of before.

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The Tunnel – Lalaith Quetzalli

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Title: The Tunnel
Series: The Light and the Illusion
Series Order: 2
Author: Lalaith Quetzalli
Fandom: Teen Wolf, Criminal Minds
Genre: Angst, Action Adventure, Crime Drama, Crossover, Family, Slash
Relationship(s): Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Background Relationships
Content Rating: R
Warnings: Hate Crimes, Hate Speech, Torture, Violence-Graphic. Death-Minor Character, Death-Nameless Characters, Dark Themes, Discussion-Child Abuse, Discussion-Suicide, Kidnapping, Murder, Permanent Injury,
Word Count: 34,277
Summary: Some choices may be easy, others may be hard. But sometimes the hardest thing isn’t choosing, but going through with it. Because no matter how easy a decision, no matter how right, that doesn’t mean what follows cannot be hard as hell. Stiles knew this was going to be the hardest thing he ever did from the moment he laid eyes on the boy.

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Loose Ends – ImaliFegen89

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Title: Loose Ends
Author: ImaliFegen89
Fandom: Strike Back (TV series)
Genre: Angst, Action Adventure, Episode Related, Hurt/Comfort, Suspense, Thriller
Relationship(s): Gen
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Hate Crimes, Hate Speech, Torture, Violence-Graphic. Canon-typical Religious Radicalism/Terrorism, Canon-typical violence, Explicit swearing, Minor character deaths, Canonical suicide attempt of a minor character, Kidnapping/blackmail situations, Hostage situations, War crimes (hostage deaths, on-screen/public execution attempts, prisoner interrogations) Discussions-bio weapons
Word Count: 52,563
Summary: Having finally put his demons to rest, John Porter didn’t expect to survive the aftermath of his last mission. It certainly wasn’t a cause for celebration when he did, since his short-lived reprieve frizzled out with his capture by the CIA.

There would be no rescue. The CIA would do their best to use him and dispose of him when he inevitably proved he wasn’t worth the effort. Those were the irrefutable facts.

When the salvation arrives in the most unexpected manner possible, John might have to revise that conclusion, and accept that there might be one more mission to see through before he could hand over the reins for good.

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If tomorrow never comes – Hedwig Edwiges

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Title: If tomorrow never comes
Author: Hedwig Edwiges
Fandom: NCIS
Genre: Angst, Action Adventure, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Time Travel
Relationship(s): Gen
Content Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Major Character Death, Violence-Graphic. Medical inaccuracies, Law enforcement procedures inaccuracies, Original characters
Word Count: 65,075
Summary: Tony always expected a violent death considering his line of work. What he didn’t expect was to wake up years younger, with memories of a life that didn’t go the way he expected or wanted.

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You Can Still Be Free – Duochanfan

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Title: You Can Still Be Free
Series: Affirmation
Series Order: 1
Author: Duochanfan
Fandom: 9-1-1
Genre: Angst, Crime Drama, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Relationship(s): Gen
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Hate Crimes, Hate Speech, Violence-Graphic, Violence-Domestic, Violence-Against Children/Child Abuse. Bigotry, Canon Natural Disasters, Canon Typical Violence, Character Bashing, Dark Themes, Death Minor Character, Discussion Death of Children, Gun Violence, Homophobia, Injury, Kidnapping of a Minor, Attempted Murder, Attempted Murder of a Minor, Murder, Stalking.
Word Count: 51,869
Summary: Evan Buckley knew that he wouldn’t see his next birthday if he stayed in the Buckley home. With help from his friend, Eric, he finds a place that he can call his own. That one action has more consequences that Evan ever thought possible.

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Affirmation Series – Duochanfan

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Series Title: Affirmation
Author: Duochanfan
Fandom: 9-1-1
Genre: Angst, Crime Drama, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Relationship(s): Eddie Diaz/Evan Buckley
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Hate Crimes, Hate Speech, Violence-Graphic, Violence-Domestic, Violence-Against Children/Child Abuse. Bigotry, Canon Natural Disasters, Canon Typical Violence, Character Bashing, Dark Themes, Death Minor Character, Discussion Death of Children, Gun Violence, Homophobia, Injury, Kidnapping of a Minor, Attempted Murder, Attempted Murder of a Minor, Murder, Stalking.
Word Count: 274,644
Summary: Evan Buckley knew that if he carried on living in the Buckley home any longer that he wasn’t going to see his next birthday. Making a decision, Evan, with the help of his best friend and his family, move out of the Buckley home at sixteen. What followed that one decision leads Evan Buckley on a path that he didn’t expect. One full of friends, family, reconciliation and a future he never imagined.

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The Entryway – Lalaith Quetzalli

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Title: The Entryway
Series: The Light and the Illusion
Series Order: 1
Author: Lalaith Quetzalli
Fandom: Teen Wolf, Criminal Minds
Genre: Angst, Action Adventure, Crossover, Episode Related, Family, Pre-Relationship, Slash
Relationship(s): Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
Content Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Hate Crimes, Hate Speech. Death-Nameless Characters, Dark Themes, Murder, Violence-Canon Level, Non-Graphic Nudity of two teenagers (over 16), Non-Graphic Sex between two teenagers (over 16) (the sex itself is fade to black)
Word Count: 22,294
Summary: Throughout his life Stiles has had to make hard choices: to accept the reality of the supernatural, to learn to not just survive but to fight, to hold onto those who truly earned his loyalty, and let go of those who didn’t… Each choice has been hard in its own way, yet not as hard as what’s yet to come…

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The Light and the Illusion Series – Lalaith Quetzalli

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Series Title: The Light and the Illusion
Author: Lalaith Quetzalli
Fandom: Teen Wolf, Criminal Minds
Genre: Angst, Action Adventure, Crime Drama, Crossover, Family, Slash
Relationship(s): Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Background Relationships
Content Rating: R
Warnings: Hate Crimes. Death-Minor Character, Death-Nameless Characters, Dark Themes, Discusion-Child Abuse, Discussion-Suicide, Kidnapping, Murder, Permanent Injury, Torture, Violence-Graphic, Non-Graphic Sex between two teenagers (over 16)
Word Count: 77,424
Summary: When you live in a world full of shifters and hunters and magic. How do you know what is real and what is mere illusion? When your world seems to be embroiled in a neverending war, how do you choose a side?

Stiles Stilinski picked his side a long time ago. Beacon Hills is his home, the Hales are his pack, and he’ll fight for them. Against hunters and magicals and whatever else might come at him!

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Pathfinder – Jilly James

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Title: Pathfinder
Author: Jilly James
Fandom: Star Wars
Genre: Angst, Drama, Pre-Relationship, Science Fiction
Relationship(s): Gen, Pre-Obi-Wan Kenobi/Nield, OC/OC
Content Rating: R
Warnings: Discussion-Slavery, Discussion-Graphic Violence, Discussion-Violence Against Children, Discussion-War, Discussion-Children engaged in warfare, Discussion-Child Murder, Discussion-Attempted Genocide, Discussion-Suicide, Discussion-Self-Harm, Dark Themes, Discussion-Major/Permanent Injury, Mild Character Bashing, implied trauma.
Word Count: 87,410
Summary: After being exiled from the Young and returning to the temple, Obi-Wan Kenobi goes through the motions of healing and re-establishing his place in the Order. Yet he knows there’s a far-reaching threat still facing the Young—there are risks of starvation, illness, and the greater threat of attacks from shadowy forces he sees only in vision. He has little faith in the Order residing within the walls of the temple, so he seeks help from without, sending petitions for aid to the service corps branches. After all, no one told him he couldn’t, and he’ll do anything to protect the Young.

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Ain’t got no tears left to cry – BytheBry

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Title: Ain’t got no tears left to cry
Author: BytheBry
Fandom: 9-1-1: Lone Star
Genre: Angst, Contemporary, Episode Related, Established Relationship, Hurt/Comfort
Relationship(s): TK Strand/Carlos Reyes
Content Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Self Harm, Mentions-Addiction, Canon-Adultery, Canon-Kidnapping, Canon-Drugging, Permanent Breakup.
Word Count: 88,789
Summary: How did it all change in the blink of an eye? They had been so happy. He thought he had conquered his inner demons. His life had been peaceful. He had pushed the red flags away. How did it all change?

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My Own Miracle – BlueeyedDreamer

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Title: My Own Miracle
Author: BlueeyedDreamer
Fandom: 9-1-1
Genre: Angst, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Slash
Relationship(s): Evan Buckley/Eddie Diaz
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Major Character Death, Buckley Parent Bashing, Discussion of domestic violence, discussion of attempted murder, Violence-Canon level, Explicit Sex in Epilogue
Word Count: 52,228
Summary: Evan Buckley learned the reason for his existence when Daniel’s cancer came back. Since then, he knew he was on borrowed time under his parents’ roof. So, he began to plan. With the help of a friend, and people he met along the way, Evan managed to make a life for himself. Maybe he was born to save someone, but he’d learn to live for himself.

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Little Wonders – EAlexBeau

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Title: Little Wonders
Author: EAlexBeau
Fandom: 9-1-1
Genre: Angst, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Kid!fic, Pre-Relationship, Romance
Relationship(s): Pre-Evan Buckley/Eddie Diaz
Content Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Canon Violence, Child Endangerment, PPD, Discussion- Suicide, Discussion- Racism, Discussion- Domestic Violence, Internalized Homophobia, Character Bashing
Word Count: 74294
Summary: Evan Buckley’s calling is firefighting, but his dream is to be a dad. He’s tried to do things the expected way, first finding a partner, then building a family. But Covid lockdown has given him plenty of time to think, and he’s decided he doesn’t need a partner. He’s ready to start his family now.

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What’s Past Is Prologue – Duochanfan

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Title: What’s Past Is Prologue
Author: Duochanfan
Fandom: 9-1-1, Hawaii Five-0
Genre: Angst, Crossover, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Relationship(s): Evan Buckley/Eddie Diaz, background pairings
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Discussion-Sexual Assault, Discussion-Violence, Discussion-Combat Injuries, Attempted Murder, Attempted Rape (Wells), Violence – Domestic, Violence – Against Children, Homophobia, Racism, Hurt/Comfort, Dark Themes, Stalking, Canon Typical Violence, Gun Violence, Toxic Family Dynamics, Character Bashing, Ableism, Discussion-Combat Injuries,
Word Count: 131,758
Summary: Moving to LA with Shannon and Christopher after being shot was supposed to save his marriage. Instead, he felt more alone and abandoned than he did in El Paso. That is until he meets Evan Buckley; a former Navy SEAL who was finding his footing in LA. The two rekindle a friendship that had barely started in the sandbox and plan for their futures.

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Dark Angel – Lalaith Quetzalli

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Title: Dark Angel
Series: Morning Star
Series Order: 3
Author: Lalaith (Lalaith Quetzalli)
Fandom: Shadowhunters
Genre: Angst, Action Adventure, Established Relationship, Family, Femslash, Menage or More (aka Threesome), Slash
Relationship(s): Alec Lightwood/Magnus Bane, Izzy Lightwood/Lydia Branwell, Will Herondale/Tessa Gray/Jem Carstairs
Content Rating: R
Warnings: Canon Typical Violence, Somewhat Graphic Violence, Low Gore, Minor Character Death , Discussion of Suicide, Discussion of Child Neglect/Abuse, Explicit Language, Religious themes, Implied Homophobia (slurs are never outright said, but they’re made obvious).
Word Count: 26,807
Summary: War is coming to the nephilim, a war they won’t be able to win on their own. But who’s there to help them fight? When their numbers keep dwindling and the Clave’s running out of allies, who might be willing to face the Mother of all Demons in battle? Years have passed, and it’s time some people face, once and for all, who they are now, what they have become…

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Unbreak Broken – enigmaticblue

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Title: Unbreak Broken
Author: enigmaticblue
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Genre: Angst, Apocalypse, Dimension Travel, Romance
Relationship(s): Bruce Banner/Tony Stark, Natasha Romanoff/James “Bucky” Barnes
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: None
Word Count: 100,776
Summary: In a dying world, Steve, Natasha, and Tony decide to use an escape hatch to a parallel universe, one that might need three superheroes. Their arrival shakes everything up.

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Ghosts of the Past – Duochanfan

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Title: Ghosts of the Past
Series: Second Chance Home
Series Order: 4
Author: Duochanfan
Fandom: 9-1-1
Genre: Angst, Drama, Established Relationship, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Relationship(s): Evan Buckley/Eddie Diaz, background pairings
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Hate Speech, Violence-Canon Level, Violence-Graphic, Homophobia, Bigotry, Discussion-Child Abuse, Discussion-Domestic Abuse, Attempted Murder, Stalking, Character Bashing.
Word Count: 44,235
Summary: Eddie and Evan are happy to be working together at the 118. With Eddie moved into Second Chance Home and the two of them making a family with Christopher and Leyna. They are planning their next steps when some Ghosts from their pasts start to make noises. Eddie and Evan are just hoping that none of these Ghosts ruin the plans they are making for their life together as a family.

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Pit of Arrogance – SASundance

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Title: Pit of Arrogance
Author: SASundance
Fandom: NCIS
Genre: Angst, Crime Drama, Drama, Episode Related
Relationship(s): Gen, background pairings.
Content Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Canon typical violence, discussion of infertility issues, surrogacy and adoption, not MCRT friendly.
Word Count: 160,158
Summary: When the deputy manager of HR, Delores Bromstead, witnesses the MCRT’s junior agents’ insubordination of the Senior Field Agent, she decides she has had enough. If Gibbs refuses to enforce the chain of command on his team, then it is time for her to act. She might not be able to make Special Agent L.J. Gibbs follow agency rules and regulations, but she refuses to stand by and let the rookies continually get away with insubordination. Her actions will end up having far reaching repercussions for every member of NCIS, including Delores. Set during Forced Entry S02e09.

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Love Changes Everything – Duochanfan

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Title: Love Changes Everything
Series: Second Chance Home
Series Order: 3
Author: Duochanfan
Fandom: 9-1-1
Genre: Angst, Drama, Established Relationship, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Relationship(s): Evan Buckley/Eddie Diaz, background pairings
Content Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Child Abuse, Bigotry, Violence-Graphic, Violence-Against Baby, Discussion-Child Abuse, Child Illness (Pneumonia), Major Child Injures, Canon Catfisher, Character Bashing.
Word Count: 46,310
Summary: Second Chance Home is running smoothly and Evan and Eddie are getting closer. Evan is enjoying his time at the 118, learning all he can about being a firefighter as Eddie begins contemplating his own future career. Nothing is smooth sailing when someone starts to pretend that they are Evan, and a catfishers victims start appearing to confront Evan for ghosting them.

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Fallen – Lalaith Quetzalli

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Title: Fallen
Series: Morning Star
Series Order: 2
Author: Lalaith (Lalaith Quetzalli)
Fandom: Shadowhunters
Genre: Angst, Action Adventure, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Pre-Relationship
Relationship(s): Pre-Alec Lightwood/Magnus Bane
Content Rating: R
Warnings: Canon Typical Violence, Somewhat Graphic Violence, Low Gore, Minor Character Death, Discussion of Suicide, Discussion of Child Neglect/Abuse, Explicit Language, Religious themes, Implied Homophobia (slurs are never outright said, but they’re made obvious).
Word Count: 35,992
Summary: It’s curious how it is always said that some angels ‘fell’ from Heaven, yet no one ever stops to wonder at what that means. They weren’t thrown out, weren’t sent away, they Fell… Alec is in prime position to understand the difference. There are times when he cannot help but feel that he’s still falling; and he has no idea who he’ll be when he lands.

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A Raging Tempest – enigmaticblue

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Title: A Raging Tempest
Series: What We Gain
Series Order: 4
Author: enigmaticblue
Fandom: Teen Wolf
Genre: Angst, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort
Relationship(s): Gen
Content Rating: R
Warnings: Rape/Non-con/Dub-con (between Derek Hale and Jennifer Blake where she uses magic to roofie him)
Word Count: 68,278
Summary: Noah realizes that integrating as many pack members as they have is going to present problems of its own. With pressures building inside and outside the pack, Noah finds himself in the midst of a storm that may devastate his pack and Beacon Hills alike.

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